When hell freezes over
Feb. 2nd, 2026 03:29 amQueens has been so badly plowed and cleaned after last Sunday's major snowfall. Some people haven't bothered to try to get their cars out yet, a week later, while some who have left mountains of snow still in the spots and/or the spots were plowed shut. There are so many spots you could usually park in that are currently about 8 inches of iced-over snow and sludge instead right now. The city of New York seems to think this is good enough. Individuals have cleared sidewalks because the city would fine them, but corners and intersections have mounds of snow and pitfalls of slush. None of it is melting away because it's been well below freezing every day since. Night temperatures have often been or "feel like" below zero in Fahrenheit. Bitterly cold.
To cut through the ever-thicker crust of ice on these snow/sludge mounds, I drive the edge my shovel down as hard as I can, then stick my whole body weight down on the back end as hard as I can. That lets me chip away a bit. Deep under that, the snow is like flour.
I've been strategic about taking my car out and trying to get back to my neighborhood early-ish. My snow boots have died horribly, with the sole of one separating off completely and subjecting my foot to the outdoors, and brick and mortar stores don't carry them. Trying to figure out what's a decent boot for the price online is rough, and my feet aren't standard so I worry something I buy sight unseen won't fit and will need to be returned.
here I come again
Jan. 31st, 2026 05:07 pmMy layout has the curious flaw that it won't let me read past skip 60.
The upside of this, I think, is that at least I'm not overwhelmed trying to read back years of being too overwhelmed to keep up.
And then getting anxious and upset about things people mention and whether that's something I should remember or if it's something that came up in the interim, when my brain is still kind of broken.
I was getting some positive results from working with a concussion expert physiotherapist, but then the whole lung cancer/new baby/dying father sequence really got in the way. I'm trying to get back to it.
"Mama sing the man"
Jan. 31st, 2026 04:49 pmI still fret about the many cute and wonderful things my child does that I won't remember.
I still grieve the memories that fall through my hands like sand of all that came before in my life.
Cancer has stolen so much from me. Most of the time I could have had with my father as the man I loved and liked, and also now my father outright.
And also, me. So much of me. If I don't remember who I used to be, am I still that person at all?
Meanwhile, my not-yet-two-year-old son has an astonishingly good memory. Yesterday I started singing him a song he hadn't heard in a month or more and he sang along. He likes to recite his books as they're read to him.
He knows pretty much every word to some of the songs I sing him. He's now very clearly working on "the Man", which is what he calls We Will Rock You.
He doesn't actually like the chorus very much. He likes the verses.
Yesterday was the anniversary of my father's birth. I don't know if it counts as a birthday any more.
Dear Casefic Writer!
Jan. 30th, 2026 08:50 am( Saiyuki )
( Saiyuki Gaiden )
( Saiyuki Ibun )
( Weiß Kreuz )
( Weiß: Side B )
( Crossover Fandom )
( DNWs )
WIPs poll
Jan. 29th, 2026 09:03 pmHere's a list of all the WIPS I've touched in the last three years, listed by working title. The deal is that I write 100 words for every vote (no deadline.)
No, you don't get to ask for any more info, though I have talked about some of them before. The oldest one is about twenty-five; the newest was started for yuletide this year. There are 25 different fandoms involved, which is definitely part of the problem, yes.
Which WIP?
A novel example of three-factor, one locus sex determination in a Terrestrial chordate
1 (1.9%)
a shadow on snow
0 (0.0%)
All Men Raising
0 (0.0%)
Arha the Ninth
3 (5.7%)
Chappa'ai
3 (5.7%)
Cheris the First
3 (5.7%)
Children of Barrayar
7 (13.2%)
Clark Knows Better
1 (1.9%)
The #@%$^$ Coffeeshop Fic Fine
3 (5.7%)
Dyson Swarm
1 (1.9%)
The First Sedoretu of Ankh-Morpork
15 (28.3%)
The Hanahaki Protocols
1 (1.9%)
Hello My Name Is
1 (1.9%)
Hikarigakure
0 (0.0%)
I <3 Boobies ch 2
1 (1.9%)
If A Body Meet A Body
1 (1.9%)
I Was The Yiling Laozu's Concubine And All I Got Was This Gauzy Robe
6 (11.3%)
Kobayashi Gusu
0 (0.0%)
Necro-Gothic
0 (0.0%)
One Is One And All Alone
1 (1.9%)
Paris Lui-Meme Imite
1 (1.9%)
Peace love & Quebecois
1 (1.9%)
The Second Master of Yiling
1 (1.9%)
Slow Like Honey
1 (1.9%)
Something Rotten
1 (1.9%)
Tiger Burning Bright
0 (0.0%)
Untitled Shous Game
0 (0.0%)
The White Dynasty Does An Activism
0 (0.0%)
I wanna hug you like an animal
Jan. 25th, 2026 12:36 am
On the eve of what the media is promising will be a snowpocalypse, I offer you a few St. John's Cemetery shots from about a week ago when we had recent but less snow. The sky in them was very pretty. You can see the eight photos at my Flickr.+++
It’s impossible to find snow boots at a brick and mortar store nearby, and my feet don’t let me pick something willynilly online. I’m facing this storm with breaking 30-year-old boots I have to stick plastic bags in and sneakers.
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I am so bored with Bleach: Thousand-Year Blood War. At this point, I feel like it's been going on forever without revealing much I actually want to know, like what Uryu's deal is (in the anime). It's been so long I barely care anymore. (The manga didn't take this long.) It looks pretty but that's not enough.
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I've been watching several videos from Captain Pikant, whom one commenter said was Bob Ross but with drum machines. I don't understand all the technical stuff involved but there's something so satisfying in how the different elements come together to gradually become the song you recognize. Also, it really makes you appreciate how much work goes into the music. The videos have a great aesthetic and moments of humor and are well edited, and the visualizer used gives the viewer an idea of the elements involved. Like, all the drum stuff in Michael Sembello's "Maniac" is, well, insane. At the end of each breakdown, they do an instrumental cover of the song.
So far, I've watched that, "Blue Monday," "Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)" (it turns out the typewriter type thing in their music video I didn't understand was a drum machine), "You Spin Me Round," a drum machine analysis of three Nine Inch Nails songs, and a similar analysis of three Depeche Mode songs.
There was a lot more cowbell in the '80s than I realized.
I really want a Beatbunny T-shirt.
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"The Bad Touch" but it’s a Cyberpunk Club Anthem
